I'm a little embarrassed to ask this, but I need help, my confidence has hit rock bottom. I cannot even play a scale in front of my tutor anymore never mind play a piece. I don't know whats happened, I used to love playing in front of people and although I suffered from nerves it was never bad, I used to use the adreniline to boast my performance.
Now I think it's sad cause I'm at music college and should be loving it and improving loads whereas with piano and all aspects of music I have lost the enthusiasm that I had. I worked really hard to get where I am, and can't believe thats I've went from such a positive confident person to this.
I'm so sorry for the rant, but I have to get some advice from others who maybe have been in the same situation. I miss playing piano and playing it for me, not being paranoid that others are judging me. I want the enthusiasm back. I'm not giving up music, but I don't really know how to progress further being in this type of negative mood.
Once again I'm really sorry about the rant.