I started flute lessons Jan 04. Teacher really lovely & non scary, suggests in the autumn that I might like to do an exam so do grade 5 in March 05 . The lesson immediately after the exam I'm given a list of pieces to start working on - it so happens these pieces are from the grade 7 lists. 3 weeks later she says I should be put in for the exam & me being the sort of person who agrees & goes along with things, ends up being entered for the exam in June ( while thinking there's no way I can possibly be ready for this, why am I doing this?.)
13 weeks after taking grade 5, having worked incredibly hard, I take the exam & get a reasonable enough pass (116).
With hindsight it was a pretty stupid thing to have agreed to. I find it very difficult to be assertive & to challenge someone who "knows better than me". I'm cross with myself for not being able to stand up for myself. It was a massive amount of work to try & fit it into such a few weeks - the jump in scale requirements alone was huge.
But, what do I do now? I got the comment sheet this week & although I'm not having a lesson til Sept I wanted to discuss comments with the teacher - my feeling being that there's no point in doing an exam if I'm not going to try & learn from the experience, but was dismissed with the remark, "Well you've passed so what does it matter." To me it matters very much, & how well I can play & how good my technique, tone, articulation etc are way more important than doing an exam. But if the teacher is so exam orientated (& I get the feeling is satisfied with aiming for a pass), what do I say in sept - I don't want to do another exam until I feel I can play musically & competently (could be a long time then). And what when she doesn't listen to me & gives me a grade 8 piece to work on?
Any advice on what to do?