QUOTE(sphiff @ Feb 14 2008, 10:01 AM)

I can't stand valentine's day. Enough said.
it will soon be over...
grrr. a friend (yep, friend, but... i have boundaries) just came over and spent seven hours hanging around at my house. at the end, i got the comment: "oh, this was so relaxing... it was so wonderful to do nothing...". this makes me incredibly stressed, as for me it is anything but relaxing to have somebody (who is not at my house usually) hanging around, almost waiting to be entertained. yesterday there was also this big chaos/panic, because said friend offered me a lift home from college, only to arrive half an hour or so later than arranged. by this time i had walked to another campus to try and find said friend. then i came back down by bus, with blisters all over my feet, to find my mom about to call the police and my friend in tears. what was i supposed to do? my cellphone was dead, unable to be resurrected, and i waited at this friend's car for at least half an hour.
apologies, but i think i have just switched on my "let-it-all-out" button.
today i am on very bad terms with my dad, for various reasons. but now i am being forced for the sake of peace-keeping to smile at him if we walk past one another. then, i have discovered that the only academic course i really want to take (because music students need to take a non-music course) clashes on two out of three days with music lectures (which i secretly DO NOT want to take). even with very cunning skipping of classes i couldn't attend both the music ones and non-music one enough to be allowed to write the exams. and the music department is somehow exempted from having a prepared timetable - it is only finalised by the end of term one. [i know this is a big moan, but it is either this or go to the kitchen and eat anything in sight (bad coping mechanism...).] again, said friend has recently become quite a thorn in my side (unwittingly, methinks). friend is very wealthy, and does not hesitate to tell me (who is collecting funds from as many sources as possible and having a filthy hard time doing so) how father has provided a budget for whatever education (local, overseas etc) friend desires. then, friend goes on to say how philosophy is a "stupid" subject (quoted from father), because it has drifted away from the pure philosophy of physics and science and so on. this is said to me, who hates science and hasn't taken it for years. now i have chosen a subject in the philosophy department. and can't wait to show the world what a "stupid" person i am because i have no interest in science.
damn... sorry for the moan. i just had to spit it out.