Thank you - I find out next Friday.

If I pass can I have one of those firemen please..... (just don't tell my husband )

I HAVE NOT DONE ENOUGH WORK TODAY AND SO AM SHOUTING AT MYSELF IN THIS THREAD OUT OF FRUSTRATION AND GRRRR-NESS AT MYSELF.








I have had the starts of a migraine, but I should have done far more than I have...especially as if this heads where I'm thinking it will, I won't be capable of doing much at all tomorrow

Hope you are feeling better soon!!!

ARGH

Not too bad thanks, noodle.

That's good, DC.

There was a girl in the bed opposite me who was taken in with the same symptoms and is a similar age and we got on really well and were called The (Terrible ) Twins by the nurses. We've sort of been through it all together. The other 4 beds in here are occupied by rather... elderly ladies.

Last night, the aforementioned girl was moved to a different ward.

Poor Floss.



Do you know where she's been moved to and are you allowed to go to visit her?

Hope you're better soon.

Aw, that's a shame Flossy I hope you'll soon be out xxx

Hope you're better very soon Floss...

Things will get better soon, honey... xxxxxxxx

Feel better soon Floss!

Miss R, i really hope you feel better soon. I'm always available if you fancy a chat about whatever.

Argh, my laptop is dead. It fell off my bed, and the screen no longer works. The man on the phone can't come til Monday - and then can only come to 'diagnose' it. Also, apparently it sounds like a motherboard issue, which I know isn't good.
At least there are uni computers that I have access to and my friends are lending scanners, printers etc.

ARGH! I have six insect bites on my right leg from some time when I was out in the wilds of Devon last week. They are tremendously itchy, though not that swollen (sometimes I React-with-a-big-R, nowhere near as bad as when I was a child [when I memorably had a bite on the back of my thigh for which the swelling almost met up on the front of my thigh!] but still annoying)
I could nip out to Boots and get some cream, well, usually I could, but today I am on First Aid duty so I can't go off site unless I can find someone to take the bag for me for the lunchbreak and that's not likely to happen at short notice, i.e. ten minutes until the bus goes in to town. I'll get some on the way home tonight (I do usually own some, but the tube went out of date, so I chucked it out before I got a replacement, and didn't get round to it, and now I'm bit).

If that's what I get in Devon, in May, how the heck am I supposed to manage Fort William in July?!

May I suggest a Burka!

I can empathise though, I've ended up on antibiotics several times due to evil insect bites.

I've never needed to scream on this forum before but tonight I do - far too much work, recently been unwell, children doing exams, migraine coming on, a misguided trial of squid ink risotto for supper that has just gone in the bin and shoulders so tense that when I sat down to practise my cello this evening I could barely bow

I think I might just go and hide in the bath then get an early night in the hope that some will work its magic and things look better tomorrow. . . .

Can I recommend a secret potion that we Scots swear by.... 'Skin so Soft' by Avon. It's the best midge-repellent on the market. All the hardened Munro-baggers (my rufty-tufty husband and his hairy pal) use it even though they smell all girly

I've been seeing it recommended everywhere I've looked online. As a fair-skinned ginger, I will probably get some suncream with DEET built-in, then when that's soaked in I'll go with the Skin So Soft stuff (Or the other way round, whichever is less goooey)

The Skin So Soft stuff is really good. I've used it at damp music festivals and argricultural shows etc and have been midge-attack free.

OK, which Skin So Soft product would it be? Having just searched on that term I get 30 products at the Avon online shop...even from the various anti-midge websites I've read they just said 'spray bottle', and there's about six of them...!

Hmm, maybe I should just get the lot and see which one smells nicest

I'm now wondering what's in them that's so unattractive to midges. Pretty sure its nothing too nasty, as I used to use the sentivity skin one when I was little, as it was quite kind to ezema...

*curious*

Apparently it's just the gooeyness of the oil - stops them being able to get their mouths in to you. One of the websites I saw it mentioned on said you might end the day covered in a oily-midgy-sludge-film, but at least you won't be so bitten

But did your mother ever confuse insect bites with chicken pox My younger daughter used to have a mild allergic reaction to mosquito bites so when she got chicken pox in the summer when she was about 18 months old, I just assumed the mosquitos had been having a particularly active night and dropped her off at the creche


You can hope it's windy

Argh! I'm an idiot! I went out last night, and as a consequence have been feeling awful all day, and unable to think. In this unthinking condition, I forgot to ring my mum to say Happy Birthday! My dad texted me, telling me off, I immediately rang, and then my dad TOLD MY MUM he'd texted me. Why, oh why?

Why do I leave things till the last minute?!?!

And why have I suddenly lost all ability to do harmony questions?!?! If I was expecting anything, that wasn't it.

Oh well, I should probably go to bed

Big scream. Our server has been bought out by SFR. We have to repatraite all our emails and tell everyone about our new addresses. Knowing how unclever I am at that sort of thing I suppose I shall spend today (Bank Holiday here) on various help lines and end up in a hopeless muddle. nAaaaaaaaaaarh!!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhh. *sobs*

What's wrong?

I'm sorry to rant, but I am unbelievably mad with myself.

Why, oh why, did this have to happen at the most inconvenient time? For Matthew, for my mum, for everyone... And why can't I just be better and do the things everyone seems to be expecting me to do already. Some people seem to think I'm just doing this for the sake of it. But I'm not. And I know this post will be annoying people, and I'm sorry.

I really don't like my job, and would have given anything for a few days off, and now I'm longing to go back, because at least some of the customers are nice. But I'm so tired, and I don't know why because I'm not doing anything.

Everything I do seems to cause an outrage somewhere, even simple things like not eating seems to mean that I'm 'rejecting' someone... I'm not.

Maybe I don't look as ill any more, but I feel it, and that frustrates me, because it seems that now more than ever I need to be ok, and I can't. And I'm quite scared that most of my symptoms seem to be coming back, which would suggest that even the operation hasn't solved the problem.

Sorry.

Don't be sorry - rant away, it's what the thread's for

You're about to have mail Floss

Miss Ross. You have had major abdominal surgery. You will feel some pain still. You will feel tired.......you have just had a general anaesthetic. You will feel odd..........it's reaction to it all.
You are just being normal.
Bev xxx

Last Summer I felt exactly the same as you do now. A couple of months after my back injury people were expecting me to be shopping/driving/hoovering and goodness knows what else. Some things I had to do just because of living alone. And yes, some people said I should be "getting over it by now". It doesn't work like that though. You have to go through the healing process, which is going to take time.

I agree entirely with Bev.

Do what your Doctors and your body tell you to do...not what everyone else expects you to be doing. It's less than a week since your op.

It will get better x

How can people say that when they haven't had your experiences


I can't see how there's any one way to get better - everybody has to find their own way surely? Have faith that one day, all this will be a distant memory Flossy x

I look well, therefore I am well. Yeah right...

Do take care Miss Ross. I've had a couple of ops and I always felt really poorly afterwards. It can be the effect of the anaesthetic which affects people differently. Also, your body has just been forced to come to an abrupt halt and had a major shock (ie the operation) and so that will affect you in a big way. Feeling as you do about other people "pressing" you into action is not good for you either and causes stress.

So, I recommend you take it easy, but get as much exercise as you feel able and be quite clear and articulate when people ask you to do more than you feel you can. After my last op I rested rather more than is currently recommended and when I went back for my check-up I was told how wonderfully I had healed etc etc. The body needs time to get back on its feet. Much better to take things steadily rather than rush and have a relapse.

Yes it's true - recovering from anaesthetic can take longer that you think. I had major back surgery last year and was told it can take weeks to get over the anaesthetic and trauma to your body.

Take care of yourself Floss and try not to mind what other people say.




And my AAAAAAGGGGHHHH this evening????....

I'm sitting in my spare bedroom where this computer lives and there are some new pillows still in their clear plastic bags...... and I've just spotted a live spider inside one!!!!!!!!

Is there a hole in the bag?

I'm a fat, useless, lay, stupid idiot

Recycling a phrase often used in pantomime...'oh no you're not!'

Miss Ross, you take all the time you need to recover neermind what anybody else says/thinks, only you know how you are feeling and when you are ready to do certain things again do amke sure you look after yourself


Oh, that really does annoy me too...I have several long term medical conditions, that I've always had, and always will have, that are fairly serious and I can go from being up and ok, and feeling totally fine, to on the floor unconscious and really not very well within minutes...but because I "look" ok, and I "don't look as if there's anything wrong" or because I try to live as normal a life as I possibly can all the time I have the opportunity, many people assume that means I must be ok, and that it can't be "that bad"...apparently not wanting to kick up a fuss, getting on with things, and wanting to be "normal" and treated like everyone else all the time I can be, means I can't really be struggling/suffering/in pain/feeling ill...?! Sometimes I think it'd be better to moan/groan/whine/not want to do anything/and really cause a big scene about how I'm feeling all the time...



I agree with Barri

Grrrrrrr

A day for the dustbin, methinks.

Nothing particularly big, but the cumulative effect of a lot of little irritations....


Stood up twice in one day by one of my scattier young adults (she overslept her 10am slot, I agreed she could have my 4.30 spare slot and she's not made it 'cos she didn't tell her mum she needed the car and mum's out in it.... )

School no. 1, the traffic getting there is hideous. So I'm five minutes late, and go to my usual teaching spot at a dead run....only to find that it's full of hatching chicks and an adamant science teacher who says we can't play here.....

So we find another classroom, and set up the lesson....but the teacher whose room we're in is there the whole time too, chatting to someone else and distracting what's already a disrupted couple of sessions.


Traffic obnoxious between school no 1 and school no.2 (I have a 15 minute window to get from one to the other, about a mile apart across a smallish town....)

I get to school no.2, can't find parking anywhere near it 'cos they've let out the school hall for the reception part of a funeral, so there are mourners everywhere.....and the school is carrying on regardless of the visitors....

Meanwhile the kids have been given sweeties, so they're sticky fingered, sticky mouthed and hyperactive, not a good state for an afternoon of recorder teaching, especially as they know half term's coming....

So I struggle through 2 hours of ear shattering beginner recorder, and hike back to the car with all my stuff...to find that one of my tyres is going down

Bah!

Sounds like one of those days that make you very glad that half-term is here, katyjay! Hope you have a lovely weekend to look forward to.

Not so's you'd notice, Berkshire Mum. The inlaws have invited themselves to visit - despite the fact I'm busy teaching / performing / trying to break the back of two diploma performances and a recital.

Hope everyone having bad days/weeks/months/years?! finds things pick up soon.

Miss Ross, I think its about time you stopped feeling guilty about everything and indulged in being completely selfish... for the sake of your own sanity! Being selfish isn't always a bad or negative thing: Sometimes giving yourself permission to be selfish is the only way you ensure you take care of yourself properly. Hope you feel better soon, and get yourself some time and space. x

W

Oh dear! Hope it goes better than you fear.

Just went to watch my sister and my old school in a dance competition. We were all commenting at the interval about how sorry we felt for one particular school, because while they'd obviously thrown a lot of money at it, the dancing had been haphazard. At times, students were just walking around the stage, while a voice narrated (it was supposed to be narrated by song, only). Everyone I spoke to said it was a real shame that they'd come so far only for it to all fall to pieces for them. Everyone was in agreement about it.

Well they won. They also won an additional award for choreography.

My sister's school was the only one to win nothing - and they weren't bad. They may not have been the best but there were certainly aspects that were the best, and they should have won something - their set design, for example, should've won something. I wonder if the judges are blind.

As well as that, we (the audience) were informed that there was an award for "friendliest school" voted by the students themselves. We all cheered extra loudly for that one, then later we found out from my sister and her friends that they hadn't been allowed to vote. That the method of voting was for one guy in a red t-shirt to wander round asking one or two random people what they thought, and that he wandered around predominantly in one school's dressing room. Surprise, surprise that school won, and apparently the kids from that school had been pushing smaller kids from other schools out of the way and acting like divas all day.

This all sounds extremely like sour grapes, I know that, but I really don't think it's fair at all.

I'm not surprised you're hacked off about it - it sounds like there's more to it than meets the eye I imagine your sister's quite upset about it as well after all the work they'd put into it.

Group hug for you and your sister, and hope you feel better about it in the morning

Not really an argh, more of a meh. I hate it when all my housemates go home for the summer, and I'm left here on my own.

Feel really flat, and not like doing anything at all. But stuff needs cleaning, emails need replying to, and its a lovely sunny day that I really ought to be enjoying.

Thanks. I don't know what it was, the school that won had spent an awful lot of money on it, maybe that was it. Oh well. My sister will be ok, she wasn't too bad last night, just a bit disappointed. The little girl who did all the choreography was crying though. All the schools had been working on it since September.

Tamsin, are you going home at all this summer, or will your housemates be back for a while? Maybe you could go visiting...

arggggggggggggggggg

Someone very deeply offended me yesterday and I've sent them an email to say so.

Now I feel bad because they'll feel bad and it's one of my purposes in life never to cause anyone any negative feelings.... but I had to let them know how deeply they hurt me.

So.... I feel bad

Sometimes I hate people for making life so complicated.