I need the "great big sigh" thread, rather than argh-scream thread.
Firstly, my eyes are playing up. My focus is messing about and slipping away somewhat at times. When I'm driving my eyes will suddenly decide to focus on the windscreen rather than the distance, and if I look down at my speedo I have to kind of 'pull' my eyes in to focus. Probably worth a visit to my optician, who I'vee been with for 20+ years who is very familiar with my eyes.
Secondly, a tooth is playing up. I've just seen the dentist, about two weeks before it started, and he cleared me as fine. I strongly suspect this isn't a dental issue at all, I think it is most likely that I am clenching my jaw, especially overnight. The tooth pain comes and goes, and sometimes it comes with some pain in my head (only not inside my skull, like a headache, but on the surface of my head, like...well, like an achy muscle really!) I could go back to the dentist but he's not my person of choice, not least because of the cost involved
I would be surprised if both are connected to anxiety. Actually, I need to make a doctor appointment for my routine six-monthly check. Which would be fine, except that my GP is currently not working (until at least May, I believe, with the possibility of 'never again'). So I have to pick a new one at the practice. I'm sure they are all fine, but it turns out my back-up-GP has left so now I don't know any of them, just going to take a punt on any of them.
This is of course adding to my anxiety, because I imagine a new GP may be less sanguine about my ludicrously long-term medication and may feel the need to Do Something with me. Which is fine, if it all works, but it will be hard work and less-than-fun and really exhausting, but it may ultimately have a good outcome. And some days I do think I'm fed up with this, so it would be nice to sort it out 'once and for all', only we've been there once and for all twice before.
:sigh: so really it's just that it's going round in circles and is self-perpetuating and self-magnifying and so I should just get on with it and book an appointment with the GP, and talk to them about eyes, teeth and everything else.