Thanks for the replies, Andy-piano-flute and meerkat.
QUOTE(Andy-piano-flute @ Jan 12 2006, 09:49 AM)

QUOTE(Suepea @ Jan 11 2006, 06:59 PM)

I'm feeling very down today after a cello lesson yesterday - it seems that over the (four week) Christmas break I have developed Bad Habits.

My bow hold, which I thought I had finally cracked, is wrong and the pieces which I have chosen and been practising by myself for grade 2 in March seem to have a lot more problems than I thought. As for changing bow hold for doing arco to pizzicato and back, I just can't do it - and it's in two of the pieces. There are two shifts which are rubbish as well! I'm now wishing I hadn't touched the pieces at all and am having second thoughts about doing the exam.
I had a flute lesson like that yesterday

. I came away feeling that all the work I had done in the last month had been pointless. Also that I was wasting my teacher's time ... (he is a professional who currently is only teaching me, (& an extremely talented 12y.o). He won't let me pay for lessons. At least if I was paying I might feel more entitled to taking up his time

).
I'm trying to tell myself that there are 2 ways of looking at this:
1. That I am hopeless, not improving & that it's unrealistic to think that as an adult learner I can learn to play really well

. Why not give up trying to improve now?
2. Try to fix some of those bad habits, remember some of the bits that I did OK (were there any?), practise "properly" & not be so worried about the whole thing that I end up so tense that I'm incapable of playing
Hope you're feeling a bit more positive today
I am feeling a bit more positive today (though that ###### bow hold change is still eluding me). I think it is, as Katyjay commented, partly the fact that the break has been a long one, with no lessons to correct the faults quickly. You are very lucky not to be charged for lessons - your teacher must consider you very worthwhile to teach if this is so. Option 2 is the one to take, but I know exactly how you feel.
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Aw Sue, I'm sorry you feel that way. I had a very similar experience with my singing this week. I learned all my pieces over the christmas break. I've got a chest infection so can't sing at my best at the moment, but I felt like everything I was doing was wrong, as my teacher just picked it all to pieces (nicely, she's a pleasant person, but I still felt very picked over!). Fortunately, I had the opportunity to chat with her about it yesterday, and she pointed out that the work I'd done was actually really good, and that she's trying to help me polish now - perhaps your cello teacher's doing the same thing. It's perhaps not a criticism of the work you've done so much as it's a hope that you'll manage to do it even better?
I think sometimes teachers underestimate the degree to which adult learners will self-flagellate over critique that they've been given. I know I pick over every little thing. It makes me a better learner, because I take it so seriously, but it can be a bit of a blow to the old ego! (And I'm quite fond of my ego. )
Yes, meerkat, my cello teacher does work along the same lines - she did appreciate the commitment, and how far I had got with the pieces, and also finished the lesson by giving me an own choice piece which she commented I had played really well - good psychology which I use in my own teaching. Her pupils are mostly adults, so she's also very familiar with the self-flagallating bit. She is kind, but very particular and doesn't let you get away with anything, nor does she ever say something which she does not mean. I never come away from a lesson feeling bad about it - that sets in when I next practice!