I'm panicking already. This is very silly, I know, but I am someone who panics so I'm sort-of used to being like this. I'm also a pre-planner and a list-maker, so guess what I've been doing this morning?
I've made the decision that lessons will take place in the living room (the teachers is coming to my house). I usually practice in the bedroom as it doesn't have a party wall, but I'm not inviting a strange man in to my bedroom on first meeting
Well, my husband will be there, which is good, as he won't let me yield to the temptation to hide under a blanket and pretend to be out when the doorbell goes. Yes, I know I want lessons, but it's just so scary. That I've never had any contact with the teacher - this has been done through an agency so far - probably makes it worse. I know, people are usually OK, they're just people, and he is, after all, a teacher so he expects to be teaching people who need to improve
Here's my list of things to do:
Bring music stand downstairs
Bring recorders downstairs
Bring music downstairs
That's all. Very simple. AND I'm not going to allow myself to do any of this before I get home on Tuesday (which will be 1.5hrs before the lesson). I refuse to be all ready 24 hours before, that's silly. See, nice and easy. Until I start panicking again and I think 'Which recorders? How much music? What will I play?'
I will probably just have the descant and the treble, but make sure to mention that there is also a tenor and a bass (maybe I'll tuck them in the living room so they are to hand if needed).
I will admit from the first how much music I have. It's a truly terrible amount (I have magazine holder thingys - one for descant, one for treble, and one tenor/bass/mixed [ensemble stuff or solo-but-play-it-on-any-recorder stuff]). At least most of it (well, more than half of it, so technically that's 'most') is secondhand. It's true, if I see recorder music not-aimed-at-children in a secondhand shop, I am compelled to buy it
What shall I play? Who knows! Luckily, one of the reasons I want a teacher is because my own practice is just so aimless - what to play, when to play something else, how hard/not hard a thing to work on, etc. So his reason for being there is that I'm so indecisive so that I haven't decided on something to prepare is quite in keeping
OK, that's all out of my head now, I shall go and be calm for at least the rest of today. Then there's just tomorrow to get through
