OK, I have a bizarre one, I probably just need to ramble to myself

Back when I started with the OU (2000), the only option was paper TMAs. I would receive the Big Brown Envelope back, and I would open it up and take a peek at the all important number. Then a few days later, when I had come to terms with the number, I would read the comments on the PT3 and essay (it doesn't matter how good or bad the number is, I still have to get used to it before I read the feedback).
The course I did in 2003, I actually never did read the feedback, well, not until it came to tidying up my shelf after the end of the course, when I realised I had all 7 TMAs sitting there in the brown envelopes still
Then I switched over to doing science stuff for a few years, which was just different - mostly simply right or wrong answers, much easier to deal with the score and feedback thing.
2007/8 I came back to essays, eTMAs this time, and I went back to the original way of finding out the score (which you see when you download), then reading the comments a couple of days later once I'd got used to whatever the score was.
This year, though, I'm finding it hard again to read the comments. TMA01 I managed to do that on, after a week or so. TMA02, I know my score, but I still haven't opened up the marked essay or the PT3, which I've had for a month now, I think. And I'm having to start TMA03 (it's not due until mid-May...right when I'm on holiday, so I've had to get ahead in order to submit it early!)
Just rambling, really, and now I've rambled I can see just how silly it is. I know the comments are just that - a commentary on my essay. They're not some sort of judgement on me as a person...OK, resolution made, publicly, I will go home tonight and read my TMA02 comments. You can all tell me off if I don't come on here and say I've read them

I blame this all on one of my uni tutors back in 1996 who scarred me for life!