oh Amber....

You won't let anyone down, as Nicki has very wisely said to you.

Hope you are fit and well again very soon.

Having re-read my post from last night I feel really embarrassed. People reading it must have thought I was drunk or something but I promise that's not the case, I was just having what I call a bit of a "mind fug". My head is clearer today, but physically things are worse, and I am in rather a lot of pain one way or another.

I have spoken with DH and recognise that there's not any remote chance of my being well enough to get through next Saturday at Woodford Green, let alone be able to sing. I feel so so disappointed about this and so frustrated with my body for letting me down. I'm going to post a reply on the Concert thread now to let people know.

Thank you for all your support and kind comments everyone, they are much appreciated.

I do so hope it's not too long before things take an upward turn, and all I can do is rest, rest and rest more and try not to worry (that's a tough one for me!) I don't really understand why it's been such a severe relapse though. I should have got this thing under control by now, I've lived with it for long enough.

Ambs
xx

Ambs, you can't help what your body does, so it's not your fault that you haven't "been able to control it". Please do try and rest, pushing yourself through things will just make it worse.

*lots of hugs*

^ wot she said.


Ambs, do NOT blame yourself for not having it "under control" - it is NOT your fault that your body is rebelling, you do NOT have to take the worries of the world on your shoulders, you ARE allowed to have bad days, fall over in a heap, and be useless now and again. OK? *hugs* Don't be beating yourself up, you don't deserve it one iota.

I'm so sorry your body is revolting (intentional double entendre, thought it might squeeze out a wry grin) and I really hope things take an upward turn soon. Can sympathise all too well with brain fug and general crapness and am sending you prayers and hugs and fluffiness, and I REALLY hope you start to feel better soon.

In the meantime, no more trying to be Superwoman, or we'll send katyjay and sbhoa round to tell you off

*hugs*

Take care of yourself, the world will manage without you for a while (though we'll miss you at Woodford).

for you Amber!

Hi, thank you. I cancelled all my appointments today and have had a total day of rest, and plan to do very little tomorrow. That way hopefully I will be ok to work on Thursday. I'm not feling great, but it could be worse. I tried some singing, but ran out of energy after a couple of minutes, so decided to stop. Jason, my 18 yr old son, has been emailing me loads (his job doesn't keep him very busy!), so that's been nice. He's been sending me links to You Tube of various martial arts, which he's very much into. One of them is particularly stunning, a young girl performing an artistic form of Tae KwonDo. It's so beautiful to watch, I wonder if she's trained in ballet as well? The link's here for anyone who's interested;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=modA9aa_ihA

It's one of those ones that's slow to load, but worth the wait.

[Thinks "this is what my life's come to, spending all day watching clips on You Tube"!]

*huggles*