I have a combination of two problems. One is extreme stage nerves - and the other, as a result of the first, is that I practise into oblivion and and am therefore semi-automatic, which means that my mind is inclined to drift into ridiculous realms like what somebody in the audience is wearing and how it doesn't suit them. It's like the kind of unreality that you get at stressful times in your life - like a death
One way round this (or is it...?) is to increase the tempo of my Haydn sonata from its current 125 per minute to 135. I've just done it for the first time a minute ago and thought it had bags more vitality, and, amazingly, it felt no less secure or clear. It would mean that I'd have to focus far more intently, though, but I'm wondering if this is a good thing rather than a bad? On the other hand, if it crashes, it will do so with style...
Has anybody else ever taken a risk like this? And do you think I might only be imagining it has more vitality because I've played it so much at the same speed?
