I've joined this orchestra as a flautist with a view to joining the strings section when I'm good enough on the viola............
It is just so difficult for me!
The problem is:
The conductor is wildly ambitious and knows his stuff so he seems to be pushing them on and on at a very fast pace. They don't seem to just perfect a few pieces then move on to other stuff, it's just NEW stuff ALL the time! I can't keep up! It's just constant sight-reading ALL the time. I have yet to play the same piece twice!
They have some very good players so they obviously don't want them to get bored and thus the pace is kept moving.
They seem to do a LOT of concerts and are very ambitious - they're always doing stuff and preparing for stuff and it's just all too fast paced for little old me!
Well, I just don't think I'm gonna cope with the viola as the constant sight reading will just blow my head to pieces. If I can't cope with my flute, then I have no chance with this viola.
and, I am SO upset because I just love playing it and I'm loving my lessons and I really want something to work towards, but this orchestra is no good for me.
I've looked for other ones in the area and there's a few that I could try, but they only want strings players and I'm not good enough.
I feel like crying
I've just wanted to get back to doing my music for so long and now this has happened.
They advertise themselves as being suitable for ALL abilities as well.........some of the other instrumentalists just sit there 'cos they can't keep up (myself included). Why would a conductor be so cruel to his players?
What do I do now?