Hello jojo,
I was just reading through your posts regarding this grade 5 thing. If I could I would slap you with a wet fish and yell snap out of it woman. Ok maybe not as you would prob hit me back and that might hurt.
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Keep at it jojo don't worry about what anyone else can do. I imagine you love making music so keep doing so and in time all those tiny improvements you don't really notice will suddenly show themselves.
you made me giggle, the thought of you 'slapping me' with a wet fish
and made me smile when you said that I am a 'god' to beginners like you
But I also had this 'wrong' impression that after 3 years of violin and reaching grade 5 that I would also be able to play a little here and there and be able to entertain a few people, I was not expecting to be a pro player but not to be saying to people either that I could not play anything for them, they all look at me in 'dismay' and say: but you've been learning for 3 years
So in a way I am warning you as well, you probably know this is not an 'easy ride' but hey, it is SO TOUGH!! I really have great respect now for all players out there, I never realised in my little life before I tried to learn an instrument how much dedication, hard work and consistency it takes!
It's 3 years that apart from a couple of patches where I was 'depressed' and did not practice AT ALL the first time for nearly 6 months, second for 3 months (so in total I have been practicing 2 years and 3 months), I always practice every day.
Indeed for the past year and a half I work 6 days a week, get up at 6 am, go to work, get back at 5pm cook dinner say hello to my son, catch up on emails, then from 7pm to 9:15pm I practice first violin then double bass (bass from last april) 9:15 shower/emails 10pm BED (knackered by time!!!).
As a result I don't see any of my friends anymore, I only see a couple of them once every 6 months as I have to get home to practice!!! sounds a bit too much? maybe but this is what I want to do, I want to be GOOD, VERY GOOD and only with daily hard work I will get there and saying 'oh well never mind I will practice tomorrow' does not work with me, I've tried and before I knew it I was not practicing half of the time, it's all or nothing with me!
But my friends are very good friends and know me, they know I have not stopped loving them and wait, knowing that in another 6 years or something like that they 'might' get to see me a little more often, that's if once you reach post grade 8 means you can tone down VERY SLIGHTLY the practice otherwise they will not see me ever again or at least until I am 65 and I retire from full time work (am 40 now!)
So I have in a way given up half of my life to learn violin (and now bass, but bass it's fun, violin is my love), I have given up 90% of my social life as well (I only go to the cinema once a month, nothing else, I never see anyone). And yes, one day it will 'pay back', even more so when I retire and I will be SO busy playing for many different orchestras as by then (in 25 years time) I will be THE BUSINESS in playing violin (hopefully
oh I am so tired, better get ready for bed now
