QUOTE(Miss Ross @ May 22 2009, 02:42 PM)

No, Lottie - please don't wish that you had failed.
If someone here posted that they were upset about 'only passing' their diploma in violin performance, what would you say? You're being a lot more harsh on yourself that anyone else will be - and I'm guilty of doing that to myself too, but it gets you nowhere in the long run. I know it's hard, and I know that it's more or less impossible to ignore this when it's your gut reaction but please, please, please don't be so hard on yourself.
I don't really know what else I can say, short of begging you to think more highly of what you've achieved...

Yes Floss you're right. It's tough being a perfectionist

QUOTE(skylark @ May 22 2009, 02:53 PM)

QUOTE(lottie @ May 22 2009, 02:34 PM)

How on earth am I supposed to work harder than this???
Commiserations, lottie

Perhaps it's not a matter of working harder, but working differently. I don't know the exact nature of your project but maybe whoever awarded the marks was using criteria which weren't obvious to you - a bit like someone not doing so well in their music exam because the examiner was looking for greater emphasis on dynamics, or a more exuberant tempo, or whatever. So don't despair - disappointed, yes (wouldn't we all

), but when you've got over the shock, evaluate in the cold light of day what you need to do to move forward. Do you have a tutor to talk things over with?
I meet with my tutor next week so I will find out where I went 'wrong'.
I do feel fractionally better this week because at least it
was a pass. It's a very bad thing I know but I can't help feeling a little jealous of the people who are getting distictions... but I'm dealing with that because it's a selfish, negative feeling and does no good at all.
My mantra for the weekend: I
passed and it's a
good thing
(p.s. Lottie is pretty much back to her cheerful giggly self really

)