ok, had a 'heart to heart' with my teacher tonight.....
I told her I am 'depressed' about the double bass as it's 6 months I don't practice and don't really feel like it either...
I said I don't know if I will get out of this, at the moment I really don't know and am scared I 'might not'
she said on her side there is no problem, she can 'hang on' and wait for me to come out of it, I am not 'blocking the space' for other students waiting to have lessons with her, she is at present able to accomodate everyone and she is not worried about me not practicing (bless her).
I have done some reflecting with her and I do know that working under pressure, although I don't like it, it usually makes me work hard and well. I didn't really want to take any exams in double bass but we think if I enter for an exam it will give me that 'stress/pressure' I need to make myself practice

especially as knowing myself I would never want to 'disappoint' my teacher with a fail or a poor mark (not that she would be disappointed but I would feel like I have disappointed her all the same.....).
I don't want to enter for grade 5 as that's too easy and it would not motivate me into practice and she agrees, she is dead sure that I am at grade 6 at present that it would only take me maximum 6 weeks to get good enough to get a distinction in grade 6.
I don't have theory grade 5 but am taking this in november.
She said you can enter and take grade 6/7/8 practical without your grade 5 so long that you take it in the same term as when you are taking your grade, that ABRSM just will not give you the results of your practical until you've passed grade 5 theory and if you fail your theory they will 'hold onto the results' until you pass (I didn't know this

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So the plan is:
-for now 'chill' and see what happens with my practice (if I do or don't practice)
-by September/october if I have not started practicing then enter me for grade 6 in december, if I have got into practicing and have progressed then enter for grade 7 or 8 even

she is planning on doing a special visit exam again in december for which we don't have to enter until november but I think if I enter in september then I'll put my foot down from september
that's the plan for now.....