QUOTE(Violin Hero @ Sep 22 2009, 09:55 PM)
I say go for it. You may be at the back for quite a while but if you don't go then you won't get better and will never end up at the front of your section someday.
In one of my orchetsras some quite young, 13-15 yr olds have joined and are not really good enough but they will gain experiance and be as good as everyone else in a year's time. Same will happen with you.
I joined an orchestra back in April/May this year, at grade 4 and a half standard.
my experience was MORTIFYING, I felt I wanted to chuck the violin in the fire as I was total rubbish, sat there like a lemon throughout rehearsal (2 and a half hours of it), played 5 notes at the most in that time, 99% of the times I didn't know what key we were in or at what time signature and at least a dozen times lost my place.
Now, 4 months on (well, 2 and a bit as they had 6 weeks break for the summer), where am I???
am still TOTAL rubbish! I still only play maybe 5 or 6 bars in the whole 2 and a half hours, we are playing stuff with LOTS of accidentals and if I go out of 1st position I can't sight read (well I can read but don't know immediately where the notes are on the violin, I have to think about it, by the time I though about it they are a page in front of me!!!)
Is it that bad? YES! Although the others in the orchestra are very friendly and don't mind me being there and even look surprised when I say I won't play in the next concert, I sit right at the back of the string section by myself.
So, after this story you may think: OK, you have put me off, I WON'T GO NOW
NOOOOOOOOOOO, I urge you to go and keep going every week as it will only help.
for example: I now always know which key signature and time signature we are in, I may not play but I KNOW what I am supposed to play, whereas before I didn't even know what I was supposed to play.
I now play 5 or 6 bars in reahersal whereas before I used to play 5 notes.
So even though minor, I can see an improvement and like others say: you've got to start from somewhere!!
I'll stick with it and one day when I can play throughout the whole rehearsal if someone new joins I'll ask them to sit next to me as I want to encourage them to stick with it and keep going 'like I did!'