QUOTE(BerkshireMum @ Mar 23 2010, 01:12 AM)

The trouble is, I fear that if I did the exam the nerves would kick in and the whole lot would drop to pieces anyway. I like to kid myself that I might do the exam, as it's a spur to improvement, but I'm beginning to know in my heart of hearts that the time isn't right yet. Still, it's fun to play the 2009/10 pieces even if no examiner will ever listen to them, and maybe once I retire in a few years time I will have a chance to prepare all the scales and aural, and really go for it.
I had spent a couple of decades accompanying school children who were, on paper, more highly-qualified than I was and many rather enjoyed the irony. In the back of my mind it was something that I wish I had accomplished and when my own piano lessons started and I noticed that the pieces I was working on were on the Diploma syllabus, it provided the impetus to try for it.
A degree of respectability in scales/arpeggios was the bottom line for me, otherwise I wouldn't have entered, but my determination to get to grips with these was really the deciding factor.
When I asked my teacher what he thought about trying for the DipABRSM, he said that preparation for Grade 8 had definitely raised my game. So now I am in a similar position; I'd like to be able to accomplish that next step, yet the journey is likely to be more profitable for my development than anything else. Even now I have doubts, four months out, but essentially there's nothing riding on the result; were I to fail, I would undoubtedly feel deflated but it would never put me off continuing to love playing.
Fortunately, my links with school provide me with the opportunity to try out my pieces on unsuspecting folk, valuable performance practice without which I wouldn't know how I might perform under exam conditions. Many forumites enter for festivals and competitions probably because this is the only way they have of recreating that pressure. I chickened out of entering this year's Festival on my home ground but I have already performed parts of my Dip' programme recently at concerts in school, providing me with evidence that to a degree, I
will be able to cope, come July.