I should have done it at 6 PM tonight. It was terrible. I walked into the car park and heard the people before me playing, which was incredibly good...

Then I waited in a room until 6.10 when my conductor said "Helen, we dont appear to have you on the list". I said "Well my head of music phoned the music service like you said". He fit me in anyway. I walked in thinking "breathing and dynamics". Neither of which happened. At all. I played the Bizet first, and the top G didnt work. It was mortifying. Then played the CPE Bach Sonata, even though I can play it well (i think) dynamics didn't happen, timing went astray at one point, and my fingers got knotted up when it got to the semiquaver passages. SO, yeah. It was pretty awful.