QUOTE(Appassionata @ Jun 21 2005, 05:03 AM)
QUOTE(grand choeur @ Jun 21 2005, 02:50 AM)
BTW - I grew up hearing (and then read it in a book on Russian Pianists) that the
only reason to be anxious/nervous is when you are
unprepared. I trust that you are prepared.
Enough of my rant...
I don't agree - I get nervous even if I'm well prepared and playing things well within my capabilities as anything could still go wrong.

Me too. I was nervous in my flute exam and I was SO well prepared it was ridiculous. I could (and did) play the pieces practically without engaging my brain... I was terrified and shaking (I got 28 for all 3 pieces by the way) - I suspect I could have added a little more in terms of expression if I had been able to think straight, but from the marks and the comments I aquitted myself well all round. I got 136 overall... it was definitely well within my capabilities (only grade 4, I took it mainly because I knew that getting grade 6 scales up to scratch would be a longer-haul thing given that I knew basically no scales when I started preparing!!!) and I played well... My scales could have been better, nerves got the better of me, and my sight-reading lacked detail - I saw it, but not quickly enough to respond to it with my brain turning to jelly. The flute is not exactly an instrument that is forgiving for nerves either: dry mouth and shaking fingers very unhelpful, and stomach churning's not good to get the necessary support!!!
I was very very very well prepared... I could play the pieces, I knew my scales unpside down and inside out (though maybe not so ridiculously well as I knew my pieces...) andf the supporting tests were well within my grasp - yet I was terrified. So no, I don't buy "you should only be nervous if you aren't properly prepared." There are plenty of other reasons for nerves - probably no other GOOD ones that SHOULD make you nervous, but plenty of other things which can make your knees knock and your belly turn over. I think it proves the point that you can be very well prepared and even play really quite well even with nerves twanging; and I think you'll find that even many professionals at the top of their game suffer from nerves - some people even play worse when they aren't nervous. So to state categorically that nerves = not well enough prepared is, frankly, tosh.
I hope your diploma exams go really well, folks! By all accounts Clara Taylor seems nice... so I guess it's just a case of reminding yourself that she's human and pleasant, and ignoring the "chief examiner" thing. Easier said than done, I know... Personally I think if/when I get to that level I will be terrified whoever's examining me....