Dear Maxine,
I'm a former freelance orchestral percussionst and now I'm the Managaing Director at
WebProjects, the team behind this website.
I also used to take AB exams when I was younger and while at sixth form college I needed Grade 5 violin in order to sit 'A' level Music. The 'A' level Board would not accept Percussion grades at the time. I very much needed to pass and like you I feared the worst.
Happily, I scraped it and went on to take up a place at the Guildhall School of Music and Drama and work in some of the UK's leading symphony orchestras. But you'll never guess! I failed 'A' level music first time around and had to stay at 6th Form college for another year to re-sit. It was one of the most enjoyable years of my life and when I went up to college I was much better prepared. All that worry about Grade 5 violin was needless.
I know you must be nervous and worried but realise that there are all sorts of things that could affect your future education. Nobody will die if you fail and examinations are not the be-all and end-all of music.
While it is essential that music students should have a mechanism for comparing their progress with others and have goals to strive for, it's unhealthy to get too hung up on them. Whether you pass or fail this exam, in later life you will look back at your music-making with pleasure and fondness. You are more likely to recall those wonderful achievements oustide the exam structure and the times that you nailed that piece at a major performance.
I once heard someone say:
"You don't fatten a cow by weighing it all the time" in relation to education and testing.
There is much truth in that. You can become a wonderful musician and enjoy music-making for the rest of your life without taking graded exams. Believe me, as a percussionist we had no option for many years. It doesn't make you any less a musician.
Anyway, good luck with the exam. Try to enjoy it and communicate your pleasure in playing. As you walk in the door, tell yourself it doesn't matter and ask yourself what is the wporst thing that would heppen if I fail today?
Mark
Mark Walmsley
mark@webprojects.co.uk