I was looking forward the lesson so much and I feel it was a complete disaster.
Most of my pieces went with errors, once when the teacher looked at me I completely lost the plot. I couldn't carry on at all. It took me 2-3 minutes to recover. I feel I knew the pieces so much better than I played them.
I got really upset. I might have been rude to my lovely teacher I said something like "you are criticising me during whole lesson" and then she said yes " I am". I still don't know how could I say something like that. This is her job after all. And I said other things to her as well. I feel awful and childish .
Many times I get upset after lessons but normally I keep my mouth shut.
I am worried she might not want to teach me anymore.
I am trying to work extra hard for next time to make the pieces 200% secure, but piano playing is really hard so it cannot be guaranteed.
What are your feelings after lesson? Is everybody blissfully happy?